Lesson Learned!

We set out for our normal Memorial Day camp trip! This year we chose to go to High Creek (above Cove!) First off I will have to say be it is our last trip up there, it is beautiful!!! One of the most beautiful places around! However I have learned my lesson! Both of our families joined us for this camp trip, which is always a good time! Saturday we headed down the dirt canyon road to go swimming, don't judge us, but when we go places we all like to pile into my dads motor home for the drive! While heading down the canyon a teenager was flying up and my dad (who really is such a good driver) did his best to avoid it, he even came to a complete stop but the teenager couldn't and we had a pretty good fender bender! It shook us all up pretty good and so we decided to bag the swimming trip and just head back to camp!
Aware that the river was raging even more then normal for this time of year, we were all on the edge of our seats with the kids! Of course my kids have all had the ears talked off about the danger of water, and they mostly understand and tend to be very cautious! However Bryton discovered a large spider web that he just had to take out with a stick on the edge of a log, not even aware of the danger he was placing himself in! I was helping my parents with there motor home knowing that both my mil and fil where watching my boys very closely! Immediately when my mil saw bry heading out on this log she begin to yell for him to come back, it caught my attention and I turned just in time to see my baby slip out of sight into what I was sure was raging white water. It by far was the most helpless, sickening and devastating feeling I have ever felt!!! I knew that there was know way that he would survive the never ending white water below! I set off into a dead sprint along with my fil down stream. Well aware that neither my fil or I could survive the white water, we were both going to go in for Bry either way! When I reached the edge I heard Bryton's signature scream as he was scrambling to get up the edge of the bank! I truly didn't know if I was dreaming at that point because I was certain that he had fallen right into the current! I grabbed him immediately and just held him as tight as I could! I was shaking uncontrollably from the adrenaline not to mention crying uncontrollably along with both my mom and mil! Every last one of that watched him slip out of our sight were in shock! It was so traumatic for all of us that we just stood there crying, and holding him for a long amount of time! Our Three day camp trip ended that very moment, without a question asked we packed up and headed home! My thoughts that day consisted of:
-have I spent enough time with each of my kids, letting the know how much I love them?
- I never even had my 3 other boys in mind when I was ready to either drag Bry out of the water or die with him
-I truly have angels watching of my kids!
-I will never camp near a dangerous stream again
-Can I be a good enough mom to these 4 amazing boys?...
I truly feel like I got and small taste of what it would feel like to lose a child, I can't even claim that I know so don't get me wrong! I still can't even talk about it without crying! I know that my Heavenly Father was watching out for our little family that day! I am so grateful that we have that!!! I wasn't going to post this but felt that if I could just help one person watch there kids a little closer that it would be SO worth it! Even though we were watching Bryton with more then one pair of concerned eyes it wasn't enough! Chase said to him "Bry you know better" to which I snapped back " he doesn't know better, but we do!" NO more camping near dangerous rivers! Also, my neighbor had her friend over this week, while she was pulling her SUV around to pick up her kids her little girl ran in front of it without her knowing, she pulled forward hitting her and knocking her down, without even knowing it, then drove over top of her, luckily clearing her both with the tires and the body of the car! Ashton and all of his friends watched this and the boys begin to yell to her to stop she luckily heard them and realized the situation! The little girl is fine! I am so grateful for that too! Let it be a reminder to all of us to pay ATTENTION! I'm sorry cause I know I have given you all Anxiety but go ahead and take some good anti anxiety meds! Ohh and, after Saturday we had a wonderful weekend together! Life is BEAUTIFUL!!!